I CAN'T STOP EATING

even long enough to type a quick blog. But I'll try--I hope I don't faint from chewing withdrawal.

I just got an email from Jeff--I'll reprint the portion I think he wouldn't mind sharing--

"We went out a couple of days ago in really harsh weather and I cooked a full Turkey Dinner the day we went out with a rockin boat , quite a thing and we had a Thanksgiving dinner , the next day it was too rough to fish until noon , every one else slept and I sat up in the captains chair and meditated and did crosswords , nice to be alone for a couple of hours . When we started fishing at noon we caught an incredible amount of fish our first few sets , one set was so gigantic that it was bigger than we catch in a whole day sometimes , we worked till 9pm and then enjoyed an pork chop feast and I made lemon bars for dessert that blew everyones mind and then slept for a good 8 hours ......if every day was like that this would be the best job in the world. "

So I think he's doing okay. Now I feel sorry for Leo and I--WHERE'S OUR LEMON BARS? He never made those at home!! What the hell!? Also--where's the 'I made a turkey dinner but it was so rough we all threw it up". that would be me.

I haven't heard from Zach--but I haven't heard him in the bathroom either so he hasn't escaped to come back home as far as I know. He may be coming back home while I'm gone in Indy..which scares me to have him here at the apartment alone--not because he can't handle living alone---but because he doesn't wipe off counters and is messy. As a housewife--my clean home is ALL I HAVE.

Leo is doing so well. Yesterday at the little playground we walk to across the street from us a hispanic nanny made eyes at him and he fell in love. She had this great happy laughy face and Leo would burst into hysterics every time she even looked his way. She asked if she could hold him and I thought "hmmm--she's a stranger' but my back hurt so I handed him right over. She took him around and played with him on the playground and he was the 'cute' hit with all the nannys. Yet not so cute that anyone gave me their card or tried to sell their services to me. They all have full time fancy jobs. But it was so sweet to see how much Leo was loving her. He wants to move to Panama now--he thinks they're all like that.

today we're going to my comedy girl lady baby get together...the girl who's hosting it today lives really far away--like an hour away. I'm going--that's how much I want the interaction.

My Indy trip is fast approaching. I'm filled with dread about the plane ride with Leo. Even with my friend Kevin flying with me on the way there....I cannot imagine being in one seat the whole time for 6 hours with him. Sober.

My next door neighbor came over to visit with his newborn and when he put her in my arms I was like 'get this little alien peanut off of me'. Newborns are so bizarre looking--I'd forgotten. And I would have guessed she weighed 3 pounds--tops. but he was all proud because she weighs 7. I've already blocked out that time period. But I'm not falling for the whole 'nature makes you forget so that you have another one".
too old. and too poor.

I'm gonna post a little Leo and Jeff video from when he was here--later. When you've earned it.

My episode of HUNG airs in a week from Sunday and I'd say DON'T WATCH IT. I don't even want to watch it. It's a sex scene shot 3 months after I had Leo. oh man...rough.

I did just get a job for about 12 weeks in Portland next Spring--I'll be doing a long run of BUST at Portland Center Stage--which is an amazing theater and I'm really excited about it. I hear Leo--I have to go or else he starts stealing things in the bedroom.