we just run from room to room looking for them...

Last night I had my friend Udesky come over for dinner and Leo was feeling tired and cranky....wouldn't sit at the table to eat and was having a lot of tantrums and a part of it was that Udesky and I were talking and not really focusing all on Leo. And it's hard to have friends who don't have kids to come over for things like MEALS because it takes so much patience and I feel all bad when Leo is out of it and not his charming dancing nose eating self. He's more his cigarette butt eating--face slapping--tantrum self. His shadow self. I'm lonely without Jeff and want to invite friends over to hang out but around meal and bath time it's hard because I have to focus on Leo. So I may have to only meet my friends in parks. And bars. In Portland and Seattle they had all these kid friendly pubs with giant play areas for kids. One of the pubs had a sunken play area and all the parents sat above on stools drinking beer and eating watching the kids. It was odd and perfect. You could just dump your beer on your kids head if he was being bad.

It made me miss Emma and Leslie again. Here's some photos to remember the good times..